This Time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake

Waiting for my thoughts to fade

A flickering of all of my mistakes

And as the light starts creeping in

I slowly feel

The day I'm missing

But I wouldn't even know where to begin

Do I push to hard?

Or fall to fast?

The moment never seems to last

Will I stop long enough to know

Everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt,

I cry

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away,

This time

Your words circle in my head

Weigh so heavy on my chest

And I'm crushed by your expectation

I only want to do some good

Too dumb to know if I could

And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

Do I go to far,

Not far enough?

Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?

And do we lead the life that we should?

Everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt,

I cry

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away,

This time

Did I say to much again?

I'm just a girl in a panic

If I tell you my truth

Am I getting through?

It just seems I should confess

Who am I to pretend

This is more than I can carry

Everybody burns

And when it starts to hurt,

I cry

I hold my head up high

I know I'll be alright

This time

I feel it in my veins

I just can't walk away

This time

This time,

This time

This time,

This time

It's 4 am and I'm wide awake

Waiting for my thoughts to fade

It's times like these I see your face