Keep Ringing Your Bell

I'm counting out dollars

While I limp to your brownstone

I can just barely cover

What I need to get back home

And I know we're allowed

Indiscretion in our lives

But I've been making my count

Every night for a while.

I keep deleting your number

And name from my cell phone but I call every day

That's as far as my act goes

But you have helped my turn down

The noise that I make

But when it stops it just pokes me and keeps me awake

My friends always warned about living cliches

But my friends aren't there

When I meet you these days

I count people and street signs from the back of your car

And then skip back excited to where ever they are

I take risks in the storm

While they talk by the bar

I won't go back outside until my memory starts

Erasing itself into something less brutal

Some beautiful bullshit I used to belong to

For as long as the truth tucks itself into bed

And the beat of my heart

And the heat of my breath

Keep my hopeful and distant and proud of myself

I'll keep ringing your bell every night around twelve