Bad Husband

We never saw from each other's sides, or eye to eye

Just eye for eye, lie for lie, fight or flight

So much baggage, need a luggage rack

But we carry on with our public spats and our feuds

Up back in the news, love taps when I dissed you

Like it was fun, actually used to run back to the booth

Jump back in the studio, give you a tongue lashing, then you

Laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb stone

It was funny back in our youth

But then it wasn’t after we knew

That we were done and actually through (and actually through)

But if there's one fraction of truth

If it could be spun back I would do

So many things different, 'cause it was such a dumbass excuse

You hit me once and that I would use

To continue the pattern of abuse

Why did I punch back? Girls, your dad is a scumbag, I’m confused

Because—

How come you can be a lord and a loser?

How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?

A great dad, but a bad husband

Why are you a good father?

A great dad, but a bad husband

You were the beat I loved with a writer's block

Just a line that's hot, that I forgot

We laughed a little, cried a lot

I'll never forget when you came home and you held Hailie

Day before you went to jail and daily

How we'd wait for that mail lady

Or by the phone for Mom to call

And I watched you pull yourself up and we decided on

Giving it one more try despite it all

You're my lightning rod when my sky gets dark

I'm your shiny rocks in that tiny box

When we tied the knot, when we broke the knot

Every line we crossed we were supposed to not

Every time we fought, the insults, they got… thrown too far

Words that we said that we didn't mean

The words that we meant that we didn’t say

The ones that we thought that we shoulda said

Letters written that we coulda read

Which maybe woulda lead to some good instead

And had this put to bed

But I’d be lyin' still if I said I wasn’t sittin' here askin' myself

How come you can be a lord and a loser?

How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?

A good dad, but a bad husband

Why are you a good father?

A great dad, but a bad husband (Dad) (you said)

Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply)

But there's always another side to a good father

A great dad, but a bad husband

We brought out the worst in each other

Someone had to make the sparring end

’Cause I loved you but I hated that me

And I don't wanna see that side again

But I'm sorry, Kim

More than you could ever comprehend

Leaving you was fucking harder than

Sawing off a fucking body limb

Once upon a time where all we had

Maybe that was what drew us

To each other, it was true love

Shit that we never knew was possible

We might have loved each other too much

And maybe that's what made us do what

We did to each other, all the screw-ups

'Cause you always thought that you was

More in love with me, and I was thinking

I was more in love than you was

For all the times that we thought it worked

'Til we saw how wrong we were

When the dust settles now and all the dirt

If I touch the rawest nerve all I want is for us not to hurt

And it's been an exhaustive search to find the words

But I just heard "Mockingbird"

And got the urge to jot some verses and thoughts

The purpose was not to stir up or open wounds

I've caused a few, and so have you

Or argue whose fault it was, partly yours

Partly mine, but really no one's

This is so tough, I'm gettin' choked up

Oh fuck it, we both suck

We broke up, got back together

We both thought we had forever

Not bad people, just bad together

We were so nuts, backstabbed each other

Another blow struck, but there's no duckin' this blow

'Cause it's over and it's closure

But I'm not so sure how to close this

I just don't know how some people can be so good

At one thing and so fucked at a whole nother

Shit, it's no wonder

How come, how come, you can be a lord and a loser?

How come, how come, you can be a liar and a good father?

A good dad, but a bad husband

Why are you a good father?

A great dad, but a bad husband (Dad) (you said)

Forever be a hero in my eyes (I reply)

But there's always another side to a good father

A great dad, but a bad husband