I Will Be Absorbed

Half of the time I spend thinking alone

While I'm working out songs or just lying in the sun

The magical sound that I long to express

Always just out of reach of my groping hands

Like the wanton muse

Beckoning to me

Vanishes before

I can see her face

How many times has a transient dawn's

Beauty faded away before you understand

And a woman whose smile is a lingering song

Bringing tears to your eyes though you don't know why

Like a fragrant light

Moves before your eyes

A million miles away

Never to return

Wafting past from my childhood

Hazy thoughts and sensations

These must hold the key to my life

I always find those indefinite things

If I manage to touch them they turn into stone

And the quality that kept me following them

Is only a sound that I knew all the time

If I ever find

What I'm looking for

I will be absorbed

And never write again