The Beginning That Lies

I welcome you - my spark - come light me!

Start beating now - you heart of mine!

Electrify my humble being

Fall dreaming into this well of life.

For all around these endless whispers

Are there to keep me safe and warm

Embedded in eternal humming

Never again I'll feel so calm

My world is water - it's there to warm me.

Within her darkness no one can harm me.

With this spasms of the world

Sur/pressed into the world

The bitter taste of reddish eyes

In sweat and tears between her thighs

Within this spasms of my soul

My body lost her soothing calm

I heard her distant fainting beat

I took a breath - to start to scream.

My world was water - just there to warm me.

Within her darkness no one could harm me.

Where are you now - you spark - that lit me?

To start this torturing heart of mine?

To click the clock that ticks and tingles

While falling into what they call life.

And how I miss those endless whispers

Surrounding me holding me warm

So deep within perpetual humming -

Never again I've felt so calm.

Sometimes when I await sleep

The memories that lie so deep

Flood up and then I start to cry

When I recall how I started to die.