Witness

Expose me for all that I am

The man behind the masquerade

I am my own false witness

Fact resides solely in the depths of my mind

And will I ever really let it come to surface?

You only see what I want you to see

And you believe all that you're told

Serenity is a beautiful hoax, a liar

I have the whole world convinced of my contentment

No truth in this

I've lost count of all the times I've made it home alive

And wished I hadn't

Expose me for all that I am

The man behind the masquerade

I am my own false witness

I'm left to conquer the mountains in my mind

And I am my maker

Life is what's killing me

I hate the fact that I'm just fine

Forever seeking anything to take responsibility

Life is what's killing me

I hate the fact that I'm alive

Forever searching for my scapegoat because

I refuse to face reality

At least I can say I tried to cherish

Every single day when I woke up and didn't want to die

I'd work my hands to the bone

Trying to stay suspended in those specific seconds

But I know I'm just counting down the minutes

Until I'm miserable again