Animals

Now that I'm alone I feel the lonely brokenness

Of all the wicked avenues I've ever sold my love on.

All these moments of meekness and trembling subsided

in the outright abandon of this orphan child.

Home is on the highway living on soft bread and solace

I guess I'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse.

And to wake up half empty,

Only to be filled again with mourning.

He's my evil shadow dove,

My black Palamito.

Can't break him like a diamond skull

I can't seem to do so.

Can't just rub him out like the

Mob used to do so.

Like memories of porno & teastains & tobacco O'h

it's a mini disastro

Bigger than the ice age

Don't know if baby dinosaurs

Maybe could live through it,

or Indians and butterflies;

What's crushed is my spirit.

Oh I fear it is too fragile

Like fall-leaves burn like paper.

I always knew,

I would spend a lot of time alone.

No one would understand me.

Maybe I should go and live amongst the animals?

Spend all my time,

amongst the animals.

And on the tracks

I would go

they lead to the sea

to be amongst the animals.

Oh, I'm just a fall-leaf something simple and shy like that.

That's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk.

Like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons,

I sit and entertain the bizarre ghosts of my soul. Lord..

His name still lingers, maybe lactates on my tongue.

Perhaps I'm just teething for a foreign fallen destiny;

Miserable but mine.

I look like his mother or Sophia Loren in an

old fashioned movie,

Slow motion I cling to my child,

Desperate for love.

One day soon my brother died, made me remember all the

subordinate feelings I cast aside, and

maybe I had lied when I said I was ok.

Just getting along like a little song that stops to sing and say,

"Wild willow, windy winter

won't you blow through me?

My whole eternity."

I always knew,

I would spend a lot of time alone.

No one would understand me.

Maybe I should go and live amongst the animals?

Spend all my time,

amongst the animals.

And on the tracks

I would go

they lead to the sea

to be amongst the animals.