Circumstanced

I feel disqualified from luck

All my life has come unstuck

Since you left me out on my own

And still, with the anguish intact

I’d have the strength to react

If your ghost would only leave me alone

But every time I close my eyes

I see you coming back to me

But is it really what I want?

‘Cause when our silhouettes appear

The battlefields draw near

Home, no one’s there, no questions asked

The safest ground to go unmasked

If only you’d allow me

But hey, you’re just a phantom in my soul

Walks my mind to gain control

Of the devastated man I’ve come to be

And every time I close my eyes

I see you coming back to me

But is it really what I want?

‘Cause when your silhouette is gone

The agony goes on

Grander than our master-plan

The bonded souls we were

But chemistry ceased to be

And nothing seems to matter no more

I’ll search and find another me

Purified of nagging history

A supplication and a dream

‘cause I’m a million miles from rain

that can wash away this pain

Every time I close my eyes

I see you coming back to me

But is it really what I want

once your silhouette is gone?

There’s a thought that keeps recurring

underneath these scars

And though it’s fatal

It may take me close to where you are

Every time I close my eyes

I see you coming back to me

But is it really what I want

‘cause the agony goes on

So next time I close my eyes

I’ll rest my case ‘cause I can’t go on

It won’t be long!