Ampersand

I walk down my street at night

The city lights are cold and violent

I am comforted by the approaching sounds of trucks and sirens

Even though the world's so bad

These men rush out to help the dying

And though I am no use to them

I do my part by simply smiling

The ghetto boys are catcalling me

As I pull my keys from my pocket

I wonder if this method of courtship

Has ever been effective

Has any girl in history said

Sure, you seem so nice, let's get it on

Still, I always shock them when I answer

Hi, my name's Amanda

And I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersand

And even if I went with you I'm not the girl you think I am

And I'm not gonna match you

Cause I'll lose my voice completely yeah

I'm just gonna watch you

Cause I'm not the one that's crazy

Yeah...

I have wasted years of my life

Agonizing about the fires

I started when I thought that to be strong, you must be flame retardant

And now to dress the wounds goes into question

How authentic they are

There is always someone criticizing me

She just likes playing hospital

Lying in my bed

I remember what you said

There's no such thing as accidents

But you've got the headstone all ready

All carved up and pretty

Your sick satisfaction

Those his and hers matching

The daisies all push up'n

Pairs to the horizons

Your eyes full of ketchup

It's nice that you're trying

The headstone's all ready

All carved up and pretty

Your sick satisfaction

Those his and hers matching

The daises all push up'n

Pairs to the horizons

Your eyes full of ketchup

It's nice that you're trying

And I'm not gonna live my life on one side of an ampersand

And even if I went with you, I'm not the girl you think I am

And I'm not gonna match you

Cause I'll lose my voice completely

No, I'm not gonna watch you

Cause I'm not the one that's crazy

Yeah...

I'm not the one that's crazy

Yeah...

As I wake up to a cough

The fire burned the block

But ironically stopped at my apartment

And my housemates are all sleeping soundly

And nobody deserves to die

But you were awful adamant

That if I didn't love you

Then you have just one alternative

And I may be romantic

And I may risk my life for it

But I ain't gonna die for you

You know I ain't no Juliet

And I'm not gonna watch you wanna burn yourself out baby

No I'm not gonna stop you

Cause I'm not the one that's crazy, yeah

I'm not the one that's crazy, yeah

I'm not the one that's crazy...