Disappear

You and I can’t get much closer

In spite of what you want

I’m done explaining

I’m broke at best

Non-existent.

I lay me down to sleep

And disappear

Why is it you have a question

For every single thing I do

Why is it you say you love me

Nothing’s ever good enough for you

“What’s the matter now?”

“Have another one of these…”

“This will take the edge off…”

And I never knew what it would be

Decisions and decisions to be made

They’ll tell you what you said and what you did

To break from the futility and run

You speak through comparison

You speak in tongues

You listen suspiciously for gaps my adaptation

You have no magic touch

Please stop trying

Sucking me dry…

And I never seemed to get it right

It’s like a shadow hanging over me

You were the first

You were the last

If there’s a god

Release me from my past

I lay me down to sleep

And disappear