88 Constellations

These days are made of leaving home

But every thought is of returning

In between is simply known for the gasoline I'm burning

Drop the bags inside the door

And out of habit pause to listen

It's the same as before

There's always something that feels missing

But not the ghosts and snakes I swept away

Though that seemed as good a place to start

I go forward or fall back

Forge ahead or veer off track

Flaming out or fade to black

Stars careening in their crosses

Someone's always just ahead

Heels dug in or being led

Nothing's perfect I once said

And I learned to cut my losses

But I could not fix the broken part and a tear stained heart

I fill my passport with the miles

Dawn is breaking out the window

Climb the steps and walk the aisles

Just another moving shadow

You know it's easier to be all alone instead of lonely

Yet I know some part of me

Feels a part of you still owns me

Way down deep where it will not be seen

But there's no doubt that you have left your mark

You go forward or fall back

Forge ahead or veer off track

Flaming out or fade to black

Stars careening in their crosses

Someone's always just ahead

Heels dug in or being led

Nothing's perfect you once said

You're the king of all lost causes

But I still wait for you because I'm not

In my tear stained heart

These wondrous days we travel fast

And the clearer I am seeing

Trade the baggage of the past

For the lightness of being

I am studying the stars, all 88 constellations

I can sense you from afar, from my earthly destinations

And in the wind and in every highway song

A match that strikes or in a random spark

We go forward or fall back

Forge ahead or veer off track

Flaming out, we fade to black

Stars careening as they beckon

It's just open road ahead

The sound of twilight, maps unread

Nothing's perfect it's been said

This is pretty close I reckon

And I've learned more than I'd have ever thought

From a tear stained heart